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Nothing much...

I alive... trying to figure things out. Nothing too new and exciting is happening. Not much work for the next 11 days. Which is awesome... just one or two hours a day.

I just got back from Happy Hour at Brits.... and I am headed out in a little bit again.

I want to paint my bedroom. I am just trying to figure out how I will do it. Lots of ideas.

That's it for now. Chau... y besos a todos.

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I'm sad. Having issues. Just when I think I forget... that I have moved on... it all comes crashing back. I do not think I am meant to move on until this is resolved.
AND now... when I made semi-permenant decisions nothing really can be resolved until late December... no, not possible new news...

I'm sick to my stomach and so confused. How have I let this happen again? It better be worth it.

Brain Clarity and BSing....

Most people who know me well, know that I have a tendency to be good at BSing. Now... this has come in handy over the years. I know what people what to hear (especially professors) and can lay it on thick when necessary. Well... that time has come... after several coffees and mates my brain has suddenly gotten into BS-turbo mode and I am flying (ok... exaggeration... moving faster than a turtle) at this portfolio justifications and evidence now. Who knew my bachelors in BS would come in so handy today. These education professors won't know what hit them.

Back to writing and caffeinated drink land....

Astrology

Am I a freak that I follow astrology and the min. I make a new friend I have to read up on their sign and see what they are like. I also read about aquarius' (my sign) and now recently I have been learning more about Chinese astrology... I was born in the year of the dog... two days before the year of the pig.... and then reading on what it means to be an aquarius dog. This might be a little strange but it helps me confirm some things about my personality and mind that I already know. Regarding friends... I get a bit freaked out when I read something about their sign... say 'they like books' and then out of no where a few days later the new friend announces that they really like books.

It is all made up or real?!? I am a believer.

Update...

This week the universe was watching over me. Maybe because I have been doing positive things in life lately... except for the usual procrastination. I was supposed to present at pre-student-teaching portfolio to some grad school professors at Friday at 4pm. I had a whopping nothing done as of Wednesday evening... I was starting to freak out in my usual ways... multiple visits to the refrigerator... when I got an email. My professor has been double booked and needed to reschedule. Yes! My stars where lined up, and the meeting was moved until Tuesday at 8am. I have dedicated the weekend to working on it... which is fine... though I found myself cleaning instead of doing what I was supposed to. I can't believe my extreme avoidance tactics.

Besides that.... nothing too much new. I may be getting together with some people from my past in the up coming weeks because of my 'new' approach to people. Yes.... instead of just thinking and not doing... I do and think later. It has proved to work thus far.

I want to go on vacation.... but no money at the moment. Next week... after Tues at 8am, I will start working on drumming up people from Spanish lessons for this summer. And then depending on how that goes I may make some sort of decision.

I'm Here...

Sorry for not blogging lately... I've been busy with life... but now I am procrastinating.... so here I am... doing what I am not supposed to be doing.

This are going well... a bit weird... but I am sure life will sort itself out sooner, rather than later. But then I see a full moon, listen to a certain song and have a nervous episoid... that makes me question all of my recent decisions and think that I am just running away... but from what exactly? I don't know.

I need to write a paper up and cook dinner before my peeps come over for a viewing of 'Borat'.

Tchau! Y beijos a tudos.

randomness

I spent the day painting my apt... and putting things in their new places. There doesn't appear to be any hot water... which is not good. I painted my walls... a really bright blue... I'm going to get in trouble. OH WELL!!! If I cannot be somewhere by the ocean... I will bring it to me.

I'm a little sad about some decisions I made... but I need to get over it and grow-up I guess. I should be happy but as usual about a million...'what if's' are running thru. my head... and making me crazier than usual.

Now... I have to get the 'rents at the airport. They are coming in the Barbados.Their flight better be on time... or they are going to have to walk home.

Then I am going out for the evening.... it should prove to be interesting.... I hope. ;)

And then I have to turn the clock an hour forward... and get my ass to my private Spanish lesson with the extreamly rich people at 11am... yikes! AND without a handover this time... I hope.

Ho Hum...

Overwhelmed as usual... not sure why.
The snow is melting quickly. Yay!!
I'm excited for tomorrow night...
Tired of avoiding some of my commitments.
Changes. Many Changes... is all part of the fun.

my mind won't stop....
it's spinning....
too much input...
not enough output...
why do i do this to myself?

Listening to Aventura and trying to distract myself...

Necesiiiiiiiiito CAFE! Ya.

It's Tuesday... I slept 2.5 hours... I think. I'm tired and not very prepared for the day. Maybe I will feel better after my daily dominican... coffee... not men folks.

Alright.... I will try to be productive... though it is 6am... and I am confused getting more confused by the moment.

Mando besos y saludos a todos!! =)

I Hate Monday's....

I don't want to work today. I just want to stay in bed. I don't have patience to work with the children I work with. Not today. Maybe after a little caffiene, I'll be a little nicer but that is going to ask a lot. I will go to Dunn Bros. instead of Caribou this morning... I need something extra strong. I don't want to deal with 1st graders or middle schoolers today.

I'm having a little pity party for myself....

Issues...

i have issues...
major issues...
some of which include...
changing my mind constantly...
the inability to make a decision...
making a decision and then deciding I want to do something else...
than throw in some constant obsessing...
some crazy fantasizing...
some more mind changing...
poooooooor dios...