Breathe

I think I may have an anxiety attack... i keep having to remind myself to breathe... breathe... breathe girl. I feel overwhelmed (which seems to be a common thing at the moment).... I don't really know why... I know why I have anxiety... I feel out of control... like I'm going into the unknown... without clear knowledge of the outcome... I just have to be brave. Go with the flow... don't shut down... don't run away... I have to face the beast...

Fight or flight?? I must fight. I cannot run away because of fear... or do something stupid because I do not like to feel venerable. I am also freakin' 24 years old... it's about time I stand up and be a strong women (the crowd cheers)... do what I need to.

I am walking through a dark tunnel and do not know what is on the other side... although I am anticipating the other side. I am also nervous. I just need to stay clam (yeah, right!!) and breathe.

Things are going to happen.... my world is going to change in the next two weeks.

Princesa

I am currently listening to this song on repeat and counting the days.... no hours until my trip... less than 4 days. My flight leaves Friday at 6am.... I can't wait.


Letras de 'Princesa' de Frank Reyes...

te recuerdo como una niña aquella de la escuela
la que se creia la reina del salon
la de ojitos saltones y Mirada traviesa
la que dejo en mi alma la primera illusion
te recuerdo como la niña aquella de las trenzas
la que me acortejaba a espaldas del professor
la que siempre supo encantar con su presencia
la que no paraba de escribir mi nombre en el pisarron,
hoy recuerdo la niña aquella la que pasaba todas las materias
la que mitad de quinto se fue y nunca mas volvio..
yo te veo y no me lo creo mira que bien te ha tratado el tiempo
y al mirate me dan deseos de hacerte reina de mi reino...
te ves perfecta me ha dejado alusionado tu belleza
tu Corazon no tiene dueño no me mientas no me quieras causar esa tristeza,
te ves perfecta me ha dejado alusionado tu belleza
tu Corazon no tiene dueño no me mientas no me quieras causar esa tristeza
princesa dime si aun quieres ser mi reina
dime si aun quieres ser mi reina(oh oh oh)
dime si aun quieres ser mi reina(princesa)
dime si aun quieres ser mi reina(princesaa)
dime si aun quieres ser mi reina(oh oh oh)
yo te veo y no me lo creo mira que biente ha tratado el tiempo
y al mirate me dan deseos de hacerte reina de mi reino...
te ves perfecta me ha dejado alusionado tu belleza
tu Corazon no tiene dueño no me mientas no me quieras causar esa tristeza
te ves perfecta me ha dejado alusionado tu belleza
tu Corazon no tiene dueño no me mientas no me quieras causar esa tristeza
princesa dime si aun quieres ser mi reina
dime si aun quieres ser mi reina
dime si aun quieres ser mi reina
dime si aun quieres ser mi reina
dime si aun quieres ser mi reina………..

Would you......

want to push your friend around (and around and around) the Mall of America in a wheel chair?? When in a wheel chair, with a non-permanent injury who would be like... 'hey, best friend... lets go shopping.... oh, by the way... you are going to push my ass around since I broke my leg!!'

I took a little trip to the Mall of America this evening and in the duration of 30 mins. I saw more than 5 people pushing their friends and loved ones around in wheel chairs. All people appeared to have non-permanent injuries... and almost all of the people that were doing pushing looked tired, mad and deep-in thought (probably about think about why they agreed to go).

So... note to the wise if you broke your leg... arm... torso... tailbone...etc... go to the MOA in a few weeks... OR you may loose a friend.

Chau!

21 Bajo Cero

21 Bajo Cero fue la tempertatura cuando levante..... estoy muriendo de frrrrrio. Por suerte estare en un lugar donde hace calor en pocos dias.

Nada nuevo esta pasando.... trabajo, trabajo, voy al gimnasio, trabajo, duermo, como, trabajo, etc. etc. etc.... asi es la vida aburrida.

Que mas les puedo contar?? Realmente nada. Desde el 2 de mayo hasta el 2 (o 3 ) de septiembre estare afuera de los estados unidos... Estare en Costa Rica haciendo mi pasantia en despues en antes... creo que ire a Republica Dominicana.... CREO.

En un poco menos de un mes cumplo anhos! No quiero tener 24 anhos... pero ya llegan. Tan rapido paso mi 23 anho en el mundo pero lo 24 sera mejor... ya lo se.

Bueno... eso es todo para ahora... Chaucito... Y mado saludos y besotes a todos.

paz y amor

Long Lazy Weekend

No school Monday... it's MKL Jr. Day....

Today, I got up early and went to breakfast with my mom, aunt and grandma at the 'Original Pancake House'. It was good I ate tooooo much. I am going to BACHATA class in a little bit... to polish up my techniques! ;) Later I will go shopping... that's all I have planned.

I need to call a few friends... here and abroad. Monday I have a dentist appt.... that's about it. I guess I will just be working out... and hanging out this weekend.

I want to see the movie... 'Freedom Writers'...

Alright... off on the bachata goodness... !!

Chau!

Where has the Week Gone??

It's Wednesday... I think... only two more days left of the work week! Yay!

I am avoiding making a decision regarding my masters program... tomorrow I will decide something... i guess.

I'm tired... and counting the days until my vacation.... 16 days...!!

Ok... Chaucito.

paz y amor

Stuff

I am in the process of buying gifts for my trip to the DR. I am buying several. I asked my friend... the female doctor and newly wed, if she would like anything in particular as a gift. Or if she needed anything. I got an unexpected response... a fork, spoon and knife. I think she means like a serving spoon and fork.... but maybe I'll just buy a whole set. I guess I will have to price that. Besides that I am buying a few other things for her and her dr. husband. And a few other people... if they are nice to me... they will get a gift if not!! Hell no!! ;)

What else? That's about it at the moment. I'm tired... and attempting to psych myself up for 15 first graders at 8am. And a two-hour tutoring session tomorrow night. Kill me now.

Besides that I am trying to get ready for a really difficult semester... but then I will be done. Forever!! ;)

My Craziness

I am mentally and physically tired.... my mind is racing I cannot stop stopping about two things. Two topics... two themes... that bare great influence on my life and how I feel and how things are and will be. I am just being obsessive... I cannot know nor predict with exact certainly thus I must (apparently) think about it non-stop until I can figure out the answer to at least of the things. I have 19 days until I will know... that scares me.

The other thing is something that must be determined from within... I must have to make a decision. Stop fearing things and just be. Be Strong and not give in.

Ok... enough babbling for now.

Chau!

Costa Rica and More

This morning I had my 'interview' with the director of my master's program. I was approved to do global student teaching. I also got my dates today from the coordinator of that so.... May 28 thru. August 17 I will be student teaching in San Jose, Costa Rica... well, actually to be more exact some where called Tres Rios... but I am told it is part of San Jose. Now I just have to save money for the plane ticket.... but I must worry about one trip at a time.

So... I guess I will be spending the summer in Central America.... some where I really had not anticipated going. Then I get to come back and do 6 weeks of student teaching for Spanish and 6 weeks for ESL.... and by December 1, 2007... I will be licensed to teach K-12 Spanish and ESL!

That's it for now... I am exhausted. I started going to 'body sculpting' class yesterday. I was in major pain today and then went again this afternoon and then do two more classes tomorrow. Maybe I will rest Saturday.

Chau!!

New Years in Chicago

Some more pics.... of my somewhat interesting weekend.

Fotos de mi fin de semana en Chicago. Chicago fue lindo... pero las chicas (menos Lena) fueron horrible, estupidas, innocentes, conservitas que no tiene que ir a una cuidad otra vez en la vida porq tienen miedo y no son bien educados en sus maneras de ser... Quizas notaste... no disfrute mucho... :/

Chinatown- Chicago

pissed (cara que mata... yo estaba enojadisima)

Waiting for the L

Esperando el tren.

No dejamos de tomar.

Can someone who is from Chicago explain this sign to me??

It says 'I see Black People'

We're Cute.

Hotties! Lena and I. Fabulous as usual.

Que sexy que somos. Lena y yo.

Las insoportables... :(

Borrachas buscando comida.

Borrachas en Walgreens.

Pase mi fin de ansiosa y enojada! Pero hable con un venezolano en el tren..... y un moreno me compro bebidas toda la noche. Las cosas que hombres hacen para una mujer. ;)

Ojala que paso el resto del ano con mejor compania, feliz... y bien fabulosa como siempre!

BESOS!!
Feliz ANO Nuevo!!

X-mas - Navidad 2006

Here are some random fotos of x-mas....

J-Fabulous.... otherwise known as me! ;)

Scary Singing X-mas Tree

Cantando Arbolito de Navidad

J-Money (my bro)

Mi hermano.

Two Cousins

Dos Primos.... parecen contentos, no?

Me and the Boys. All the Cousins

Soy la unica prima. Todos mis primos.

Taking a Bath... he was not happy.

El perro banando... no estaba contento.

Feliz Navidad! Merry X-Mas!